Always the one

 

I’m always that kind of girl who you can be friends with even though you stopped calling me “home”;

I’m that kind of girl whose heart can be hurt but mind can’t be harmed enough to throw others far away from my path.

You’ll always have my back even when it aches so much that I can’t fit you in there,

But you’ll always feel that I’m there even if I’m wondering where.

 

Yes, I’m that kind of girl who’s always the one who loves, never the one who’s being loved

And if you even care, I tell you: I’ll make up for it.

I’m that kind of girl that can get easily upset but

Always the one who’s never gonna say that.

 

I’m the girl who prefers to be alone,

Because you don’t feel solitude when you’re physically on your own.

I’m that type of girl who can feel ashamed

Even if you were the one to be blamed.

 

Feeling the need to fill up the hole,

But knowing that you’re the one who’s digging it yourself.

I’m that kind of girl who’s always a good listener

But not trustworthy enough to give it a try even though you had an idea to be closer to her.

 

Yes, I’m the girl with "so many talents"

But little do others know why it’s all coming out of me.

Always was and am who’s hiding in the corner until anyone notices

But once they get ennoyed, they can throw away like trash as that’s what their short notice is.

 

I’m that kind of girl who was always ignored by others her age,

So that’s why she started to get triggered by the ones who really cared for her.

I’m the kind of girl who’ll beg for forgiveness

Just that she doesn’t feel her lifelessness.

 

Yes, I’m still a white paper that doesn’t want to see the black paint coming,

A slow-melting ice that’s not gonna melt until the down,

As there’s still hope for the change to come

Even if deep inside I see the real me drowning.

 

Fake glances and Hellos- so, thousands of bruises

I’m just getting tired of not being included.

And still, I’m the girl who’s never gonna say : You did.

You can freely say that I sometimes call myself stupid…

Always an intuder who will pour her heart out to everyone

But still seeker of attention as it’s hard to be heard by anyone…